A Writer’s Past

The past cannot be changed
But the future is yet to be written
All past wrongs cannot be made right
But future wrongs can be averted

The past is written down in stone
So no force can change its form
But the future is written down in ink
So if you find some ugly words, these ugly words written in stone
Search for them in the inky future and use your whitener to erase the ink

The important thing is that you are the writer
And there is always something to be written

There are books and books all written in stone
Never-ending rocky fragments
Some are illustrious like the diamonds
Some are shiny like the rubies
Some are dark like the emerald sapphires
Some are dull like the grey quarries

But if you are tired of being a writer
Then you must drop the pen
But first accept that you are the writer
Dropping the pen then becomes very easy

Oh, I am tired of writing and writing
I hope this book is close to my last
And in a few books, I shall drop the pen
The last book is always the most glorious
For in it there are no scratch-marks, no abbreviations, no imperfect words
Yet words by their nature are so imperfect
So if you want perfection, the words should be abandoned
Yet words are a representation of what is perfect

There are four reasons why the pen is tightly held
Anger at something forces a writer to write against it
Pride about something forces a writer to write for it
Deceit makes a writer consider an imperfect word perfect
Greed for words, books and paper makes a writer write anything at all
An aversion to a thing or its opposite causes anger and pride
And attachment to something causes deceit and greed
If these four (or two) are permanently discarded
Then the pen will lose its grip on your hand
And then you will be able to drop the pen

So blessed are those who have dropped the pen
That the words are unable to describe their brilliance

Written: September 2012
Modified: August 2013

One comment on “A Writer’s Past
  1. Arnav says:

    This poem has a spiritual undertone. I wrote it keeping in mind the concepts of karma, rebirth, the passions, liberation, etc. Knowledge of the Jain philosophy will help in understanding these.
    The writer is the soul, the stones are karmas already experienced in the past, the ink represents karmas yet to be experienced in the future, the books represent lives, dropping the pen represents liberation, writing represents binding more karmas, reading represents knowing, etc.
    So enjoy reading (or knowing)

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